Last Words?

Indescribable.

Isn't it always such an overwhelming feeling whenever you're nearing the end of something?

In retrospect, how much have I exactly been present in the classes? I could have been there physically, but was I really there? I can't help but feel this way, always. I was looking back at my previous posts, and I recalled all the assignments we had to do, the discussions and activities we had in class and of course, those rare times the class managed to share beyond lesson hours.

Sadly, they were all but blur images initially. Twelve weeks breezed by and it amazes me how much we have actually accomplished over time. But as I calmed down eventually, they became clearer and more vivid.

I'm most impressed with the idea of blogging for this module. Even though blogging is basically just all about writing without writing, but writing formally and professionally has always been a huge challenge for me. Whenever there was a blog post due, like now, the thing I'd fret about the most was stringing my casual thoughts into serious words that made sense, and thoughtful sentences that were coherent.

The first few posts were really difficult for me as I was at a loss as to how I can sound professional. I wanted to be taken seriously for once. My posts were always published with so much apprehension. I still recall vividly how mind-blown I felt the very first time I read Laura's and Han's posts. I told myself, "These people can write. Do something about yourself, Huiyun. Write something decent."

Along the way, I picked up constructive comments that helped me grow. I wouldn't say I've changed my writing style, but I've certainly tried to incorporate whatever feedback I've received to mould my style into one that could finally suffice in justifying my incoherent thoughts. Reading others' blog posts have also proven to be helpful, as I observed the different writing styles and how they can be applied in different situations and contexts. I'm not sure if my writing has improved at all, but I certainly do hope they sound more coherent than before!

Having a blogging group was also fresh. It motivated me to write because I knew there would be at least someone who would be reading my posts, even if you may argue that it was simply out of pure obligation. And my mates would also send me gentle reminders to update when my blog became too stale nearing the deadline. All I can say is, that really helped me a lot so thanks guys!

Lastly, I'd also like to take this chance to tell all of my classmates: Even though I haven't commented on each and every of your posts, but I've read through every single word and it's been a real pleasure getting to know another side of you through your very own words. Thank you all for making my Tuesdays and Fridays so much more bearable!

And to Brad: I'm so grateful I didn't get outbid for this class, thank you for showing me that learning how to communicate can also be this versatile, and enjoyable! The liveliness of your teaching style has left me much to reflect on, and I'm looking forward to the day I can finally be a professional communicator like you!

It has been a rewarding and fulfilling learning experience for me, albeit fraught with the endless exhausting deadlines. As much as I'm dreading the arrival of this coming Friday, I hope the friendships forged throughout these past few months will be able to last beyond The World Without Walls!

And of course, may these not be my last words, yet.